A New Hope

2010-01-10T05:43:00.003-07:00

I have been thinking... a bit too much i suppose. How life changes. For some it takes an instant for others it takes a lifetime, but changes is inevitable and thus life changes.

Get hold of some sand in your hands, and clench your fists. What goes away are the moments that were not yours, what remains are what you deserve.

I started my 2009 hoping for a new beginning, free of the backstabbers,the naysayers, the ones that made me retch up and puke out the last remnants of the undigested bits of food that I so dolefully gulped while stabbing away on the console of my PS3. The last bite of cheese pizza being washed down with the frothy coca-cola. I was afraid of what I was turning into, a couch potato content with his plate of food and the daily dose of games.

It was a winter that I had never experienced before nor have i experienced since. Where the whole landscape of adorned with a sheet of snow and like everything else all starts with a tiny snowflake which came wafting down from the heavens above and landed on my nose. It was the night before Christmas and I was in the driveway of my apartment complex checking under the hood of my Camry. The forecast was of the weather closing in about 1 am in the night and I wanted to be super careful about my car. After all in times of extreme weather conditions a car can be a man's best friend as well as the worst enemy.

I went to the Target mall next door got some hot cocoa to sip on and a bag of chips and all the while it snowed. The road glistened with the fresh snow and I could feel the old AC of my car dying as the windshield got covered in a thin layer of mist.

My room's window had a view which looked over York Avenue and with a school being adjacent to where I lived, it gave me a direct line of sight till a few miles. As the wintry evening turned into a cold night I could see the lamp posts as a warm reminder of the season I was in.
It was Christmas and no matter how cold it may be its the warmth of our heart which gives us company to fight the chill around us.

It snowed for closed to two hours that night, enough to have multiple layers of solid ice on every object around us, Man made or otherwise. The temperature dipped well below 0 C and went on to hover close to the -20 c mark. Like I said it was a winter like none I had witnessed before.

It stayed that way for well over 2 months which also was the lowest ebb of my life.
No sunlight for days, icy conditions, blizzards in the night followed by slippery roads and bone chilling cold in the mornings.

Then one phone call later on Feb 15 2009, I could see a blade of grass reaching out through the crystallized snow. I could smell the soil as spring beckoned me to embrace it.

I still had a long way to go but I had started my journey with a new hope.
I was not afraid any more.

Mid Life Crisis

A New Hope